College

Why is life like this
So hard to obtain true bliss
I wander through life not knowing
what part of me is showing

Do you hate me for this reason
or do you love me just because
are you my friend?
or am i just a nuisance?

Life is changing rapidly
I don't know what tomorrow will bring
I'm not sure on how to act
in this new life of mine

I know that i have issues
and i know I'm insecure
but please look past those problems
and see my soul so pure

I know i drink to much
but its because i don't know how
to act around these new surroundings
alcohol just keeps me going

When I'm drinking i can be
someone who is not quite me
but someone who is confident
and I am buried deep within

I know you wonder about the food
but believe me i cant stomach it
I know i don't eat enough
but stress kills my body

I know I'm skinny now,
but thats not why I don't eat
Its not about my image,
i just don't seem to want it

I know I'm messed up
you don't have to tell me so
but please just do me one thing
and try to let it go

I know I'm new to all of you
an outsider coming in
but this is new to all of me
and I'm terrified to fail

I need people around me
all the time because you see
it was all i knew and here i am
in this new place all alone

please don't judge me yet
because you don't know me
life just flipped 180 degrees
and I'm just trying to succeed