To whom it may concern part 1

To whom it may concern
so I haven't really been thinking about you lately. & when I do I just feel anger & sadness so I avoid thinking of you. I just can't help my self from feeling the way I do! We go through the samething over & over again & it's just the same story with you. I don't know why I even try if you can change! & I know that it's not that you can't it's that you don't want to leave your life!!! I'm sick & tierd of you lying and cheating and just messing around with my feelings. You don't think it's hard for me to think or to see or to hear that your with her! You don't think I imagen everything you say or do with her. I feel like I'm ruining my life because I'm so caught up thinking of you & her when I can be living my life with happiness and joy & every other positive and happy emotion. When in reality all I feel is anger & frustration like if I'm living in the past! I just want to be done with you. I want the feeling I have for you to be over. You don't deserve me cuz I deserve better then your b^%%s$@& you call love!! If you love me so much why don't you do something instead of just saying it cuz actions speak louder then words. So much for those empty promises. Or those empty I love you! I'm done!=] I should be over it. I just felt like saying how I felt cuz when you realize in your mind and heart that you want me I won't be around to be laughed. At especially played! I hope you have a nice life..full of happiness & laughter as well as regret & sorrow! I can't say I'm happy for you cuz you choose trash over treasure! Suck on it! Enjoy your life! We both know you just let your happiness go..

Always
"easy"