Discover Love.

What does love feel like,
Tell me, do you know?
How can you tell whats real
And whats for show?

What about friendship
And how it doesn't last.
A stream of empty memories
That I can't get past.

Cause I was too different,
Top it off, I was cursed.
Being rejected for those reasons
Only made them worse.

Who cares about a girl
Whose unable to cry.
Hated for trying too hard
Though no one asked her why.

To whom nothing was given
But everything was asked.
Then beaten down when pressure
Made her crack the mask.

Grew up with 2 siblings
Of which she was the black sheep.
"You're the reasons for our troubles,"
Rewind that and repeat.

Screaming out my emptiness
Until I couldn't move.
Never able to please everyone
What else is there to prove.

Wondering what love is
When I'm only pushed aside.
So many people used that word,
And so many people lied.

Starting to hate the air,
That keeps me alive.
Why should I have any dreams
When I'm only deprived.

Always felt someone was watching
Waiting for me to crack.
Pain worse then the curse
Living in my back.

Guess you could say
I was desperate to find.
Someone that would keep me close
And not leave me behind.

Tell me what love is
If you have faith to pray.
Tell me why "God's" angels
Couldn't help me walk away.

Love is just a mystery
That left me feeling dead.
Waking up the madness
That prowls inside my head.

A beast I couldn't tame
When the truth, I couldn't face.
Laughing at me through the words
That kept me in my place.

But you do not discover love --
it discovers you.