To You: From Me

It's been long since I've written,
But I feel as if my world has been
Split in
Two.
Who am I? Who are you?
Sometimes I haven't got a clue?
This is whut you'd choose
To do.
To pretend, carry on, be someone
Your not,
Act as if the old life's forgot..
While you laugh on,
Inside I Rot...
Fall apart, bust to pieces, slowly decay,
Forget who you knew,
I have faded away,
A piece of me died,
Whut more can I say................
If there was anything more I
Could say,
Would it have made you stay?
It's the very same question I ask
Myself each day.
Through in and throughout no answer is all I receive..?
Even I can answer that,
It is I who chose to deceive..
And now I believe.
There's just no turning back,
To a life that was completely taken
Over by black.
The very black of my heart,
And I pray, there's a way
To restart,
But it's in my Dreams,
Not even a part.
Of reality, the plan, even I can see,
There was never any hope for
You and me.
So it's ticking and ticking which goes the clock,
Where finally it's my turn to block
Out this pain.
That I have felt time and time again,
Now I must leave you..

Amen

Copyright Amber Nichole Reedus
September 13th, 2010