Silence i thought was the key....

I am the reason for their pain
I had to leave their side because I chose to take the wrong paths in life.
I never knew how much pain it would cause someone because of my actions
They are all looking at me now six feet under crying their eyes out
Life is hard and death is easy
but now looking down upon the life Ive left behind its nothing compared to what Ive left my loved ones to feel because they've lost me
Holding the blade and giving up on life
I thought it would be the right thing to do
Not thinking on what others would feel
And to think that I used to think that they didn't care about me and how I lived life
not feeling loved and looking at them now...
They did...