Traveling Light

I've never been one to have many friends
No one to love me, to tie up loose ends
All that were here for me left me to rot
The life that I dreamed of was not what I got
Who was ever there for me, when the going was tough?
When the world was unfair, and the days were so rough
One or two may have cared, might have stopped to check in
But one or two's not enough, I feel empty within
I'm sure no one will miss me if I decide to go
What choice do I have, God? I'm feeling so low

How can you say you've been neglected?
Like not a soul cares...have you been infected?
This person can't be you.
You cared and you loved
Certainly this can't be true
I don't know where to begin.
I won't just take this as the end
You're ready to lay down, and be done
Because you say that you have no one?
What about your friends, can you not see?
Knowing how much suffering you'll cause your family

You just don't understand that this pain could hurt so much
I've had to live my life without a single touch
I needed someone to care
Just to say that they'd be there
Knowing that I needed them to call
To pick up the pieces so I might not fall
Someone who didn't mind
Coming over in a bind
Someone who knew I didn't feel the way I should
Someone who gave up their time to show me that I could
Someone who always understood, they would always love me
But now, tonight, I've finally realized that no one like this could be

I couldn't be there for you, couldn't hold you in my arms
Because in truth, you left me; you caused your own harm
You kept us all away, on the outside looking in
You wouldn't let your guard down, even for your friends
You can't hold this all on us, you're part of who's to blame
I understand there's something wrong, and I love you just the same
I've come over, the nights when you're blinded with hurt
Held you close, talked it out, wiped your eyes with my shirt
And for you to say I've never been there? You know that's just not right.
You think I'd leave you on your own for this dangerous fight?
I wouldn't leave you lonely, I've tried too hard to fix this mess
Sit down with me, take my hand, and get this off your chest

So now my feelings are just trash?
I think that's just a little brash
Have I not been good to you?
You've had your share of bad nights too
But you will see when I am dead
You'll have your share of tears to shed
You will all be, "Oh, so sorry" then
You'd all wish you had been better friends
I shut you out, I will admit
But without trying you just quit
Gave up on me like all the rest
I'm done with life, I've tried my best
See you sometime, I wish you well
To all the others, go to hell

What's with all this bitterness, the emptiness and scorn?
Have you no feelings, I know you must be torn
There must be doubts in your head
But that's no reason to be dead
The gift of life was given with grace
But you said goodbye, and shoved it back in His face
You're reason for suicide is completely insane
You act as though all of this is just some game
Like you're teaching us a lesson, with you as the subject
But if you want to go, who are we to object?
Just the people who loved you, and who were always there
You just chose not to see it; this is selfish, don't you care?
Just remember death is final, there's no turning back the clock
I just wish I had the key to undo all these locks
To take off your chains
And remove all your pain
To keep you here with us, because what would I do?
You made it clear you don't want me, but honey, I need you.