Is it really ?

Is it Really?

Tears burn my eyes
Sobs shake my body
Your deny breaks my heart

You are gone forever
Never knowing how it could be
Never giving me a reason why
But isn't it clear?
I still want you
I need you
But your gone
You gave up
I thought it would work
It would last
I said that to see what you were going to say
Just to test you
To see if you were true to me
But you failed
You didn't even try
I think I deserve more than that
Am I not enough to fight for?
Am I too easy to forget?
I never believed you would be the one
The one I trusted with everything
I told everything to
Explained my life story
But nope
I was wrong
Your not for me
All that I love you Lizzy
It was just a joke to you
You most likely was like thinking
"oh. I got her where I want her"

But you know what?
I still don't believe you just let go
When she told me what you said
I just shrugged it off
I just ignored it
I tried so damn hard not to
Not to think about it
But I always end up losing
After all the things you have told me, showed me, wrote me,
I just know you can't possibly just break our bond like that
Deep deep deep inside I know you are trying not to hurt me
To make it easier
But it only makes it harder
Makes it more painful
And oh god it hurts
You will think that a month would be enough
But it's not
When I see your name, picture, words
My heart races
But then I remember it's no longer yours
And my heart breaks
My heart breaks even when I have it
It just... Hard.