What does it feel to be normal?
To look like those people pacing through Wall Street with their suits carrying brief cases filled with paper works
Working night and day even on Christmas and 4th of July cause they got kids and demanding wives to feed at home
Or teenage kids who�s pregnant and a husband who did nothing but just being a couch potato watching football with a beer helmet and potato chips by his side who�s too lazy to grab the remote even on arm length
I wonder how it feels to be those people who wake up at 7 to have breakfast with the whole family and sit down for dinner 12 hour later
Asking stupid questions with creepy smiles on their faces trying to know what they did the entire day, acting like they give a damn about it
Will I be able to cope up with the life and routine they always did?
A monotonic life that made them looks like monimonitoredots than those robots itself
But if I do, what am I in their so called �normal� life?
Probably still a dark, twisty and weird creature in their �happy� �perfect� �colorful� life anyway
So what�s the point of me bothering thinking about their life, it�s like they ever gave a damn about how does it feel living my life anyway
A life where you got the world on your finger tips, anything you ever wanted under your toe, but still feels like you got nothing
A life where nothing�s good enough, a life where there�s so many people surround you but at the end you still and will always feels like nobody even gave a damn about your life
Nobody even bother to even ask, and even if they do, they only do it when you look like you�re lost and like you�re about to kill yourself
Not knowing and not caring that you feel that every single day
Isn�t the �DON�T JUDGE A BOOK BY IT�S COVER� phrase are widely spread already?
But why people still judge the way I fell by the smile I fake every day??
Don�t they ever fake a smile even when they�re head are ready to explode in rage, or when their heart is so crushed that they can�t even feel anymore?
Well maybe they don�t, I forgot how they always SMILE and be HAPPY in every situation
If that's how they determine normal people
Than even an idiot can tell that i'm not NORMAL enough to fit in
Or am i?
