Eternity of Gray

Dazed and wondering most days.
Simply going through the motions.
Secrets imbedded so deeply within,
within this confused mind of mine.

Nothing but anger above the surface,
too much fear to look below.
Later, tomorrow, one day.
Just not now. not today, never.

Maybe holds hope and was once welcomed,
now there is nothing left to hope.
Aviodance is the essence,
the essence that is me.

Out of fear for futures to hold,
to hope for a better day than now.