I matter still

My heart won't heal,
I need to make a deal,
Even with the devil.
It seems I've sunk
To that level.

I've fallen,
Now I'm bawlin,
And the tears just
Keep spilling over.

I try to hide
My bloodshot eyes,
But I fail,
And lose my pride.

I can't take this pain,
Pulling on me
Like a chain.
My leash gets shorter,
I have no supporter.

Left with a broken heart,
That won't seem to mend.
But here I am,
Broken and shattered,
Still thinking I matter...