My Tears, My Cuts

I sit there and hope i don't see you
Because every time I start to breathe with out you
I can't when you're around

I still love you, and when you don't notice me
It hurts me like hell

When I see you talking to another girl
It breaks my heart

I know you aren't mine anymore
And I know I made that choice

But you are still the tears on my pillow
You are still the cuts on my arm, that I try to hide

I tried to move on, and mark the pain
But all I did was fuel it with alcohol and sex
And now I can't get you off my mind
And I wish I knew how

I wish there was a textbook that
Could tell me what to do
Because without you,
I'm nothing

Lonely
xXx