Goodbye

I cry these tears of pain and anguish
I push at these walls surrounding me
I pull at the pain that tries to consume
I beg for a chance be finally be free

Yet all I ever feel is utter despair
I can't experience the things you do
I miss the days of carelessness
I miss the days of being with you

If only I could be like everybody else
If only I wasn't left feeling empty and alone
I wonder when it'll ever all go away
Can my heart be something other than stone

The force this depression has on me
Like a hand choking away every scream
I cannot breathe, I cannot survive
I can only live amongst this dream

This nightmare that nothing will ever change
This hatred for the things I once cared for
I am not normal, I am not alright
I am healing the wounds, forever sore

I can only hope for a time when I will die
I can only pray for the day I no longer live
Tie my hands of all responsibilities
Because I simply have nothing left to give

I was meant to be alone forever
In a world built for kings and queens
I was meant to never be happy
Or so it always freaking seems

I'm tired of trying so hard for everything
I'm tired of trying to make things alright
I shouldn't have to always work so hard
To make everything in my life so right

When this curse is lifted from my soul
It'll be too late to make it all okay
Because I've chosen to end it all
On this one and final day

Goodbye.