Tug-o-War .

Pulling, pulling, and more pulling; Its like a painful game of tug-o-war. One person on this side, and several people on the other. Its not even close to a fair game; but does that stop them? No.

They are pulling my heart apart at the seams; Turning my beautiful dreams into nightmares; pain; and heartache. Breaking apart what little i have left of a shattered, bruised heart. I never knew things would turn out like this. That me and the one i love would [have] to be apart.

I never thought i would ever even find my other half; but i did. And now, because of a few mistakes he has made, i have to give him up... So; Its [him] on one side, whispering to me the sweetest words, of love and forever. Promises; that he is changing, that he is trying. For me. All the [memories] of every moment we spent together; clouding my mind and making my heart race. Missing the feeling of when his lips would touch mine. Wanting the gentle touch from his strong hands. Loving; everything about him.

But now; Its all over. And things have become [complicated], confusing, and painful. My parents don't think he is good for me. They say; "If he cant care about his life, and want to try at school; then hes not going to be able to care about you." Tears fall from my eyes, for i know what they say is [true]. And now; I'm starting to like someone else. I'm torn; between two guys. One of them i love, and the other i like.

Tug-o-war; Its Cory on one side, fighting his hardest; all by [himself]. On the other side; Its Devin. I don't love him, but my parents and everyone else says he is good for me. So he has help on his side. The truth; Devin would win this game of tug-o-war... If only my [love] for Cory wasn't so strong.

So now I'm stuck; Stuck in the middle. Being broken more and more everyday. This is going to be the [hardest] choice; that i have ever had to make.

Written; 11.12.10

** I followed my heart, everything inside of me was saying to choose Cory; no matter what anybody else says or thinks. <3