Lost and confussed

It hasn't been easy for me
since Ive been on my own,
theres just so much to think about
when you find yourself alone.
So many visions
running through my mind,
not sure what to look for
but afraid of what i might find.
Afraid of what lies ahead
because of what i left behind,
trying really hard to keep myself sane
because I'm close to losing my mind.
I know it sounds like I'm a bit
lost and somewhat confused,
but its the mixture of emotions
that have left me tormented and abused.