I once dated a boy and told him
" I love you more then I love my stars,
and you know how much I love my Stars"
the only problem was
that he didn't know
in fact he was clueless
to why I was strucked from their glory that is
over-shinning beauty
Endless possibilities
and the answer to life's most terrifying fear:
loneliness.
I loved stars.
but I for some reason loved that boy more.
It wasn't long before he smashed my impossible heart
into thousands of uncountable pieces.
and I had dug my hole in the earth
to rehabilitate
to re-grow
to start over.
and I had to do this all over again
as If I was an infant
Learning how to find earths beauty
all over again
and in so
I left my millions of twinkling smiles behind.
days
months
years
For some reason time passes at an unholy pace
and I am rebuilt and structured to contain myself
shield from trusting
and have lost my naive sense of reality.
I am now what society calls
A valued member of life
I am An Adult
and as I drive along the new city I moved too
to get away from the pain I left home
A streetlight flickers off
and I can see again
from the vibrant connector
of a full humble moon
millions of soaring lights
scattered in the navy blue sky.
I drove to the city's highest point
It holds home to the Ocean
and An Open pallet of possibilities.
It reflected the sparkling hopes
dreams
and desires
I held as a young naive girl
they were all there
ready for me to soak in
as they have learned the art of patience
and waiting for me
thankfully
they accepted my apology.
and they still love me
at 2:30 in the morning
in the flicker of my newly fulfilled life.
