Holding On

I'm keeping a smile on my face
Life keeps spinning at such a fast pace
Don't know what to say or do
All I know is I don't want to lose you

I know you won't push me around
But do my tears make a sound?
I smile so it looks like every thing's alright
But I'm always laying awake at night

I wonder what I mean to you
Do you still feel the same I have no clue
But my pain will never be known
And my thoughts shall not be shown

So I say this to you now and I say it strong
My feelings are not wrong
But love is like the wind
Some how i can never win

Wish I could tell you all the things on my mind
I will all in good time
Sometime you hurt me and you don't see
How much that affects me

I used know the difference between right and wrong
Now all I hear is a sad sad song
A song that makes my ears bleed
And my tears weep

Never knew I could become like that
But from now on I'll be the one wearing the top hat