What would you do if I left today?
Would they care?
I would love to share,
How I feel
But I can't,
Because you don't know how it feels,
To be the way I am,
I feel alone,
With no-where or nothing else o turn to,
But that shiny object in the kitchen,
Or that white box in the cabinet,
But I have no friends,
To talk to or that I can see all the time,
That is why I wanna die,
So what would you do?
Would you call for the ambulance?
Or would you try to stop the blood?
I wish I could foresee the future,
Of whatever you would do,
Would my brother even care?
Or would he just take my room?
Or would you sell my stuff?
Would you tell me father?
Would you tell him how I died?
If I was to kill myself,
I would leave a note by my side to say why,
I have always wanted to die,
All I would say I am sorry for the pain I put you through but I cant take it anymore,
But this is how I really feel,
But no-one understands why,
If I came back as a ghost,
I would haunt him,
And say it was because of you,
I wish i could clear the slate,
But you have done to much,
I can't cope with your lies,
It isn't very nice,
For you not to care,
Or the fault no-one understands,
You're the worst person in my world,
So why do u bother.
I want to die no-one notices me anyway,
They are all cruel,
But I don't know why?
Do they love to see me sad?
Or even hate it when I am glad?
Or are they all mad?
Or is it the way I am?
Or is it because I am me?
But because of this I wanna die,
But I could do it today or even tomorrow,
in a weeks time or in a months time or maybe even a year,
I am unpredictable,
But it depends on how I feel,
I feel frightened,
About if I did kill myself,
What would happen?
But it depends how I feel on the day.
