You left me

[e i g h t] months. eight long, painful months.
verbally, mentally, physically abused.

but its okay, right? you are my first love.
[ my first love. ] you were my everything.
i let everyone walk out, just to have you stay in
my life. because all i wanted was to have someone
love me. and your love was all i had. i gave you
the thing that meant the most to me. i dare not
let anyone take. until one night, i let it happen.
why me? why didn't i stop it? it didn't feel right,
but why didn't i stop it? i was scared and alone.
and after eight months, you took it. my virginity.
i'm another statistic - , 3 weeks average after
sex among teens, they break up.

you left me beaten, alone, and heart broken.
i bet your happy, because it wasn't you getting
beaten. it wasn't you left with no one. it wasn't
you left with a heart broken in two. i'm scarred.
and almost three years later, i still wear that frown.
i can't get over what you did to me.
its like you burned your name in my heart forever
and it won't go away. i've tried. i did the most
selfish thing, because of you. i tried to take my life
because after two years, i was still hurting.

[e i g h t] months. eight long, painful months.
verbally, mentally, physically abused.