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I can't hold on any longer
My fingers are slipping
Wish I was a little stronger
So you wouldn't look at me like that
Weak, A Disappointment, Diseased
I've got all these names
You've labeled me
Tagged me
Named me
What am I other than that?
No longer a person
No longer a soul
No longer your little girl
See me with these scars
See me with these bruises
I've grown
I've become
I've changed
Memories became these words
And forgotten they will never be
In my veins
In my heart
In my head
Playing like this uncontrollable
Melody
No tune needed
Just the tick-tock of the clock
Inside this coo-coo mind I own
If you read them
Feel them.
If you feel them
Be them.
If you be them
Die.
I am supposed to be this person
You wanted all along
But change is what I can't do
It isn't in my power
The only power I have
is being invisible in the mirror
I can't see myself through the fog
I can't be myself through the lies
See the tears as they fall from my face
Onto this frozen ground
I can't keep it going
I can't keep it coming
If I gave up now
What will that do?
I won't let the satisfaction
Sink in
Fall in
Dive in
I am going tall and strong
I'll straighten my back
Grow through these words
If I ain't worth the time
I am just going to walk away
If I am worth the wrath
I'll fight back
I am no longer that child
Hidden by the transparent fences
I am no longer that child
Carrying your world on my back
I've flown away
See the world change around you
Once I disappeared into the crowd
The throne you sat on
Withers and falls apart
Ain't that crown you had
Such a heavy burden for you now?
You ain't my queen
Nor my king
I ain't your servant
Nor your jester
Love was all I asked for
Heart ache was what I received
I ain't your little girl anymore
I ain't your burden
I am me and that's all I'll ever be.