I Almost

I almost,
convinced myself I was smart, beautiful, strong.

I opened,
to everyone around me, it didn't last long.

I waited,
for many days and weeks to find what was wrong.

I realized,
people see me as shriveled, bent, and lost all along.

Once Upon a Time,
Beauty was deadly,
it caused so much pain.
The sun shined,
life was ending,
there was no more rain.