Its Getting Harder.
I try to make myself let people in..
Closer to me again.
I pushed everyone I care about away when you left.
I didn't wanna explain to them what happened,
you told me not to tell anyone.
I've kept that promise.
Even though everyday without you is killing me more;;
I just wanna know that you are okay.
I don't know why I sit here..
Writing as if I'm actually talking to you.
Maybe I just wish I could actually be telling you everything that I'm feeling.
I'm afraid to let myself like anyone else.
Somewhere deep inside me I still have hope that you will come back to me.
But I know your not going to.
I really should just give up..
