I try anything and aways everything i can to be perfect!
i try so hard to be thin enough, throwing up over and over again so i can have a peice of mind. one month i cant eat the the next i eat everything but cant keep it down. i try to look pretty for him but im not sure it makes a difference. i just want to feel good enough for him. all the makeup i put on hides what i truely am, ugly. he never sees me any diffrent then covered in makeup and a skinny waist but if he knew the things i do hed run but if he saw me for who i really am he would still run so why am i trying to impress someone whos just gonna leave me in the end anyways?
