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by GorqeousDisaster Dec 1, 2010 category : Sadness, depression / other
Deep inside i broke. The tears just felt so right. I didn't want an are you OK? I refused to hear an are you alright? I just needed to escape, my tears just needed to fall, i had to get this out, its hard not to feel small. I needed to cry it out, and bleed it down the drain. Find a small bit of hope while bleeding out a vein. I no longer care that your here to see the breaking point inside of me, how i was so helpless and how i had fall. Back to the start no help at all. This is hard to admit, i needed you as bad as i did. I didn't want to love you, even tho its hard to admit. I wanted a reason to hate you, but you gave me none. I feel so right in your arms, Its there i want to run. I wish that i could explain to you, why I'm giving up. Other than I'm tired, Ive just had enough. Theres something deep inside of me, That Just gave up hope. I want to fall in to the ocean, my luck i would float. These cuts are just tallies, to mark what Ive been threw. Until i finally get the chance, to finally cut threw. To sink this pretty razor blade, into magic blue Veins that run red. To finally say forget it, I'm done Enough said. I dint want to look back, I no longer even care, Theres no point to Move on, When your future ensures no ones there. And all the things that made sense to me, Aren't adding up, I guess the strong girl, Turned out not to be so tough. But what shes been trying to Say, was there isn't much time, I just wanted to hold you, One last little time, I didn't mean to lie to you, It wasn't quite fair, When you asked me on your life, I just couldn't swore, Deep inside of me, I only swore on my own, Hopefully theres a place for me, to call my eternal home. I didn't want you to see me cry, Even though these tears were for you. I'm sorry for the things i had to put you threw. And all of my mistakes, only keep adding up. I didnt have much time, I wish i could have Said, your were mine. And as i started thinking, Six feet isn't so deep. Pushing daises, Right beneath your feet. So much has went unsaid, and things ill never get to see, but just know i wanted to free.