What can I say to a heart that is puzzled?
Dont worry one day you will be solved?
Lets do it, lets not wait, jump to the answer?
How can any of it be right?
When a heart is stuck, its hard for it to move on.
It is hard for the puzzle to be solved.
But lets solve it right now.
Lets lay everything out.
Sometimes I feel as if our paths will meet again,
Then all the other times I know its over.
I know the reality and that must be the sad part,
That I still have hope.
But why?
Because I never did want to give up,
I believed and I hoped.
I wanted answers,
Though I never asked any questions.
Its crazy because no matter how many times I answer my own questions,
No matter how much I ponder on your possible answers,
There is nothing like the truth,
There are no correct answers except the ones that would come out of your mouth.
Not knowing the truth hurts me more then loosing you
If I am to be completely honest.
Yet I'm scared to hear the truth,
Scared to hear that everything could have been a lie.
Maybe thats what bothers me.
Maybe that is what keeps my heart puzzled.
Hn. I can like other guys,
I can feel that I am ready to move on.
I know that I do not longer love you anymore.
I swear I know because there are less tears.
Actually almost none, when the past is talked about.
Also, I know that now I only have love for you.
The only kind that I can have, I am not in love with you anymore.
But why every time I move a step forward you come to mind in little ways?
Is it because of the impact you made on me?
Or is it something more?
I am reaching for impact,
But I do not know yet.
All I do know is that you are not the one for me anymore.
What we had is gone,
What we had is in the past,
And there should be no reason for me to ponder about unsaid words.
And this is what I have learned since you've been gone...
(my first poem in a long time, so a little rusty....)
