I'M ASHAMED OF WHOM IVE BECOME
I HAVE LIED AND DECEIVED MYSELF,
I HAVE NO WHERE TO RUN, NO WHERE TO HIDE
BECAUSE I HAVE SHUT OUT EVERYONE ELSE.
I HAVEN'T BEEN TRUE
I HAVE BEEN LIVING A LIE,
PRETENDING TO BE SOMEONE I'M NOT
AND I DINT EVEN KNOW WHY.
I HAVE BEEN ABLE TO FOOL PLENTY
BUT OTHERS SEE RIGHT THROUGH ME,
ITS AS CLEAR AS IT COULD BE
TAKE A CLOSER LOOK AND YOU TOO WILL SEE.
YOU WILL SEE THE REAL ME
THE PERSON I AM INSIDE,
THE PERSON WHO ISN'T REAL
THE ONE I TRY SO HARD TO HIDE.
BUT THE SADDEST THING OF ALL
IS THAT I NO LONGER RECOGNIZE WHO I AM,
I'M TRYING TO GET BACK TO WHO I ONCE WAS
BUT NOW I'M NOT SO SURE I CAN.
ALL I WANT RIGHT NOW
IS TO LIVE MY LIFE FREE OF SECRETS AND LIES,
TO BE ABLE TO DO THINGS RIGHT
AND MAKE CHOICES THAT ARE WISE.
I PRAY SO HARD EVERY NIGHT
THAT I BE RESCUED FROM HOW I LIVE,
THAT I BECOME THE PERSON I KNOW I CAN BE
AND GIVE ALL THE LOVE I'M ABLE TO GIVE.
I NO LONGER WISH TO LOSE OR FAIL
I WANT SOMETHING BETTER AS OF NOW.
I WANT TO FIGHT AND SUCCEED
ONLY I'M NOT QUITE SURE HOW.
