You told me we needed to talk
You said my eyes told u im not ok
I cryed so much
I told you how i wanted to die
I took the blad to my wrist
Smiled and said i just want to leave
I cut and saw the bad things running out of my
The cuts made the bad memories go
It gave me my life somewhat back for tonight
I wish pa would come take me to heaven
I miss him so much
I know he loves me
But now hes gone
I need him by my side
He never hurt me
HE always believed in me
Now his grandchild sits alone
Fighting the world around her
Please pa come take this pain away
I saw the car coming i ran
Ran so fast
My head wasnt thinking
All i got was a horn and the middle finger
Not a scrath Not a mark
I wish it killed me,but yet im still alive
Im not going to do it again
But my thoughts of suicide are whats killing me
Maybe im getting to depressed
Maybe im to lost
Maybe i cant get these things out of my head
I wish i was back in csu so i had people to talk to
To color with and watch tv
When im in csu i feel safe, they really have been my only family for the last 3 years, i know they care i know they love me, but everytime i go somehow i leave
I guess im use to being alone
THe wall i put up is so strong now nothing can take it down
I want to go to csu tonight, but i cant
I cant admit i need help
That im not strong enough
