Sorry ..

This is going to be,
An overly formal apology.
To say sorry for everything,
That i'll just never be.

I'm sorry for believing,
In santa years ago.
And the easter bunny,
.. More than you'll ever know.

Sorry for the dreams,
Of being somewhere else.
Just because here wasn't perfect.
And I didn't know how I felt.

I'm sorry for the fact,
That at night I cried.
And you couldn't help me,
No matter how hard you tried.

Sorry for the blood,
That was drawn for patience.
And the friends I hurt,
Trying to go the distance.

I'm sorry I stuck around,
To hear you hate me.
To see the way you felt,
After my lie you believed.

Sorry I say i'm fine,
And refuse to let you in.
And that I breathe the air,
You'll never get to consume.

I'm sorry i'm not brave enough,
To apologise to your face.
And that i'm trapped inside myself,
Still trying to find my place.

Sorry that again I cried,
While writing this to you.
And i'm sorry that i'll always be this way,
No matter what you do.

.. I'm Sorry ..