Standing, Wishing, Hoping

He left me standing, he left me wishing, he left me hoping
I held composure, I did not cry, but inside I wasn't coping

I tried to be strong for all those around me, but I was dying
I knew it wouldn't be long before I was found to be crying

My heart beat faster each time at the mention of your name
I've no clue why it still wants you, the one person to blame

I built walls to keep people out, hoping not to let them down
But I knew they would crumble, as inside I wanted to drown

I could sense the cracks were growing and beginning to show
All I could think of was you and how you could be so low

I wish it wasn't you who had done it, but things are now done
You ruined lives; I never hated anybody, you are the only one

I was standing looking a mess, I was completely in distress
But I had to hold on for everybody else, so I hid my stress

I was wishing that it was all a dream, that he didn't do it at all
So I held my tongue though I knew it to be true, waiting to fall

I was hoping that this could all be erased and you could return
But no one will forgive you, and there's no hope I've learned

He left me standing, he left me wishing, he left me hoping
I gathered all my strength, so I could pretend I was coping

Little did I realise, that no one was fooled, they knew I lied
They knew I wasn't coping and that my heart had in fact died

By Alisha Sherden
04/09/10