The wind blows on my face in such a soft gentle way,
as the tears that I cry slowly stream Down my face,
the sunset and mountain view doesn't satisfy,
seems like my thoughts are in another time.
As I lay in the sand and just fade into life,
I get this urge and temptation, so hard to fight,
the worries and regrets stream down like water,
waiting for my rescue, why should I even bother?
I hurt so bad, but I know one day I wont,
I ask, "Do I love you?", the truth, I think I don't,
life is so hard, living it with out love and trust,
its just not enough when your living with just lust.
The smile on your face, the fake hugs, the harsh words,
neglecting my every affection, it still burns,
the rush I get when you fake it, how good it all feels,
the sudden "eye opening" moments, god I wish it wasn't real.
How strong the word love is, obsessing over you,
how delicate the matter, like theres nothing else to do,
the memories of yesterdays, fade so quickly and so fast,
just reminding me that tomorrows without you forever last.
The wind stays still, I can no longer feel the breeze,
the time all around, the people all just freeze,
the sunset still in movement, no longer there for me to see,
reminding me that yesterdays with you could no longer be.
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This was when I tried to work things out with him... It was a constant neglection on his side && i felt so lonely && I just knew it would never work out anymore && I knew we just had to let it go...
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