The monster I've become

I used to be a carefree soul
I lived my way without regret
Now I don't know where I stand
Feeling like I've lost the bet

Always cautious and on my toes
Suspicious of everyone around me
I don't know what has changed
But I've lost the carefree ability

I concentrate on myself more
And less on what makes me smile
Always afraid of who is watching
Feeling the need to go the extra mile

I feel that I'm waiting for approval
As if I have something to prove
I carefully think each step through
Before I make any moves

This isn't the life I like
where has the free spirit gone
I need to make some changes
I don't like the monster Ive become.