I often ask myself why
Why I do this to myself
Sitting here drunk
Doing things I'd never do
I constantly set myself up
Can't ever blame no body else
I fxck up on my own
Whether or not I'm with you or alone
Fun for the minute
But I wake up in the afternoon
Knowing I can't be the same
Cause you've seen a new side of me
How do I block her out
And pretend she never was?
Especially when she's all I've ever dreamed of?
She finally speak her mind
Finally opens up
Tactful but rightly blunt
Won't let you walk on her
She finally knows her worth
She'll tell you what she wants
And take what she needs
Still this feels so wrong
Like I wish I wasn't happy
I don't feel like I deserve to be
Yet God still blesses me
And I have to ask myself why
Why is He so good to me?
I do it to myself
Can't blame nobody else
Let me put my pride on the shelf
And be who I want to be
But right now my brain is faded
My eyes are slanted shut
Tomorrow might be the same
But I'm counting on this shooting star
To take me somewhere far
So far away I forget yesterday
And how I'm living numb
Cause if I can't forget I'm doomed to repeat....................
***I might add more later, I don't know. I don't know if it even makes any sense cause I'm so drunk right now....oh and please rate or comment. Opinions are very appreciated :D
