Jenn, this is beautiful. I like the whole idea of how you think that what is said are lies yet want them. even the use of the word ''stumble'' flashed a picture in my head. more of someone hesitating, not sure what will your reaction be dare they come close you again.

words like ''sadistic'' , ''deviants'' , ''masochist'' and such, made the fight between you and what you want clear and obvious. like he or what you're asking for is what you would love to hate.

just one suggestion, here..

''Since the beginning of time
Primal urges have destroyed us
And so willingly we go
Embracing death as a lover''

I do not think you need ''as a lover'', you can just end it ''Embracing death'' and it would be more powerful, I guess?

all in all, I loved this Jenn, well done!