Dont Tell Me

Yes I'm young,
Yes i shouldn't care.
Enjoy life
Blah blah blah

But you know what.
Ive seen enough suffering
Ive felt too much pain
I know what betrayal is.
And i don't mean from just a boyfriend

Ive gone through more then you have.
You ask me to understand
Well try being in my head.

Ive seen my mommy cry
Ive raised my sister as my own.
Ive lived day by day being scared
For my daddy coming home

Ive felt beatings and slaps.
Ive run away from a life i wish i didn't have.

I have scars as a reminder of what i used to be
I have things to deal with that nobody's helped me with

I'm not perfect,
Oh God not even close.

Yet I sometimes wish i could worry about normal teenage things.
My crush,
My boyfriend.
what clothes to wear.

Instead I worry.
What is my sister eating today.
Does she have clean clothes.
Do her pants even fit her.

I have a paranoia
So bad that i cant trust anyone.

Half the time I'm wishing I'm not me.
Ive needed motivations to keep moving on.
Ive needed a listener,
Someone by my side.

So don't sit there and telling me,
Your just a teenager.
Because I ain't no normal one.

Since I was five,
I packed my own lunch.
I protected my mom from
the one called my dad.

Your judging doesn't affect me.
You don't understand.

And don't try walking in my shoes.
Because your not strong enough
to take a step.
Let alone live it like i have.