Laying here alone in the dark
just staring at the wall,
tossing and turning restlessly
trying not to focus on just how much
I truly wish you where here.
Going through my days
kinda feeling like an act
as I try to pretend I'm fine
and not show how much it hurts me
wishing you were really by my side.
I try to understand,
try to be patient and see,
try to truly see your point of view
and why you keep this distance
but I can't say I really see.
Nights of silly, stupid fights,
saying we just don't want to do it
and saying we just give up,
breaking each others hearts again
from the stress that we're under.
Sometimes I don't really care to see,
I don't want to try to understand,
why you make the choices you do sometimes
when you could just simply tell me yes
and end all this heartache we know.
I see the risks, I see the challenges,
I can see the troubles as clearly as you
that are coming towards us
just over that ridge,
you try to protect me but I say let me face it.
I'm your hope and your peace,
your sure thing to hold tight to
and I see and understand that,
you want to protect me, me always safe,
and I know your intentions are good.
But it kills me inside every time
I can't reassure myself that you're safe,
watching you take risks from this safe distance,
it rips me up from the inside out,
never knowing every time you step out.
Laying here alone in the dark
just staring at the wall,
tossing and turning restlessly
trying not to focus on just how much
I truly wish you where here.
