Emotional Games

If I could dig out my emotions
Of my hearts solid ground
There'd be holes of all sizes
From times you were around

If I could tear out the pages
Of my hearts secret diary
Just the seam would be left
You've destroyed a lot of me

I'd like to change my prayers
That I sent to Him above
I'd ask for feelings to go away
I'd ask to never fall in love

I wish I could go back
To the time of preparation
Of our first kiss in the garage
I'll never forget my anticipation

I'd love to be taken back
To the night on the porch swing
Under the stars, under your arm
Under the spell you had on me

Instead I find myself
Driving past your street
With evil eyes and 1/2 a heart
Feeling empty, but once complete

I find myself distracted
If your number comes on my phone
Once excited, now confused
Maybe its best to be left alone

No one knows how to rid emotions
They can't be drowned or pushed aside
Thats why my heart still says I love you
That's why I cannot say goodbye

If I could pull out my feelings
The ones that involve your name
I'd move so far forward
And out of this emotional game