I am the person that everyone can come to when they are down
i am the person that if they need food, shelter, clothes, transportation, to be prayed for...
i am here for you anytime you need me for anything, or anything that you want...
i am a someone that will guide you in the right direction, and pull you out your storm...
i will help you never look back at the situation and i will never leave your side unless you want me too...
I'll always give until i cant give anymore...
but yet very few people fail to realize that about me...
those people that actually came to sit with me and try to have a conversation with me i appreciate... then those that instead of one look at me they start picking...
i truly hate myself...
i can not ever stand up for myself when someone comes and says something mean to me
i am the nerd everyone looks at in class asking questions and when the teacher turns their back I'm the 0ne being picked upon...
i am the person everyone talks about and makes jokes at and tell untrue stories about just to get a good laugh in...
it really hurts when people do that
i am a bundle of insecurity
i have very low self esteem because of alot of people that i have stumbled across in my life
i an the child that once everyone made it a joke on anonymous day to throw used protection at and deodorant and UN used protection at
i am the child that is alone in this world and want friends and simply cant find or get any because i push people away from me just by my insecurities of being hurt in the past...
i am the child that contemplates on life or death as i cry myself to sleep at night...
i am the loner that has only two true friends..
one that has been gone out of my life for a good two years now
and my boyfriend/best friend...
i classify myself as an outcast and a loner...
i dont like to be such that...
but i am
i want people to laugh with me and tell secrets to but...
no one likes me...
i have alot of associates or just random people that come up to me and ask me for help when they come across a problem but then after that...
they turn around and talk badly about me behind my back ...
i have done nothing wrong and i know that and
i try to tell myself their just jealous and haters because as soon as i walk into any class not knowing anyone everyone starts snickering and looking at me and making jokes...
when the teacher turns around around they make jokes...
i have to be the one beaten upon at school by their vicious sharp edge cutting words and then come home to even more physical and emotional pain...
its not fair...why cant people be treated equally...
in other words good
instead of bad?
why cant people just be nice...
i have come to the point where i just wanna give up on everything since no one will miss me anyways...
like whats the point of existing
people wont even know I'm gone...
life just sucks...
people are really mean...
and the pain from it is even worse...
