I fell For it again.

Theres words in my mind,

that just don't belong,

I knew the whole truth,

but i played along.

I went against instinct,

I fell for it again,

Open your eyes,

stop playing pretend.

My heart was at stake,

I put everything on the line.

I'd do it again,

If i could call you mine.

I knew the boundaries,

They shouldn't have been crossed.

I fell for this lie, and I'm so utterly lost.

I tried to break the habit,

but what a mess i have made.

This unhealthy addiction,

to misery I'm a slave.

I seen the beginning,

But not a promised end.

If there is no wrong,

is theres no right to defend?

I wore my heart on my sleeve,

I tried not to fall.

Against my head,

I didn't stall.

I jumped off the ledge and

I fell to my fate.

I crashed and i burned,

but you didn't cooperate.

After that high,

I seen no recovery,

So i let myself die.

I was wrong, and i know it.

But you were to,

These words aren't anything,

let me prove to you.

I'm truly deeply sorry,

But Ive learned my mistakes.

I guess this was all ,

to lose you, but how do i get you back? what

dose this take?

You were my downfall,

My Other Better half,

I fell for a disaster,

I wont repeat the past.

Now i see what this has caused,

My trust is paper thin,

Right back to what I'm running

from, i should have never

said more than friends.

I smile so you wont guess,

that i am missing you,

To try and act like I'm better,

Now i don't love you.

Its a lie, ill Begin to believe,

I'm mourning now, so ill

be OK when you leave.

I see it coming, but what can i do?

Ill try to act strong, but

i know it isn't true.

This picture I'm portraying,

I promise isn't real,

But I'd paint me a smile,

so you wont know what i feel.

And in this tired head,

memories like to stay,

I try to find a way to cope,

But it seems to fail everyday.