Should I just give in?

How much worse can this pain get?

I even think my soul is crying inside...
and god damn it all its worth it...

So close to the meeting day...
and I lay down and pray...
Let me live through it....
Let me get through it.

Goddess lead me through the thorns in the rose garden.
Hes stolen my heart...
In such a short time...
All this pain is to much for this one rhyme.

My heart is breaking...
My heart UN relaxed.

The pain is seeping...
in through every pour into every crack.

He stole my breath straight out of my lungs...
And now hes going going almost gone....

I'm hurting inside...
In no one I can confide...

In love with a stranger...
My heart in danger...

And i don't care...

Fell so fast...
Crashed through the floor...
Time to walk it off...
Do i walk to the door?

Hes got me by the hand.
By the heart.
Singing late at night with my laptop in hand,
and now inspires my art...

Is he gonna leave be broken?
Is this a bargaining?
True love?
Or am I right...
My instincts all above...

My heart over weight and I'm all in the dark...
It is the bait and he is the shark...

I want him to have me...
I know somehow he wants me...

So much I've to give...
Just between him and me...

i want him dearly...but Ive told him to go...
I think I'm in love with him...and I just want him to know.

He has my heart...
Had it since he's been my right hand...

A friend to be honored...
Right till the end...

He has my heart...
I don't know why...
But now in my bed...
I sit and cry.

I wanted happiness...
I found it again...
Is it a trick...?
Should I just give in?