Blame

Throughout my life
Ive made myself so strong

blocking out the painful moments
and distracting myself when I'm ready to cry

but the pain is getting so unbearable
and i feel i cant go on any further

Ive fallen to my knees and I'm crying at your feet
you look down to me and call me pathetic

so tonight, once the sun goes down
ill take the gun you've used for threats
and finally pull the trigger

and when you find me, please don't cry
because of the blood stains upon your carpet

and when you find my note
and hope it knocks you in the guts

because I'm lying here life less

and your the blame.