The Jump

I jumped.

the cliff dissipating as i neared solid ground

thoughts of love.

you who held me every night through my tears

thoughts of suffering

the scars that stained the entirety of my body

thoughts of relief

to which painful death would release.

and yet as i fall i wonder,

i wonder how the world will see me

A coward?

A hero?

Nothing?

but it does not matter

for as i near the bottom i chose my fate

the ground mere meters away

as tears well in my eyes

i think of how I'll miss you

and suddenly i regret jumping

and hope that somehow i live

against all the unlikeliness

that i survive

as the ground nears i close my eyes

and as i open to see the ground

i see your sleeping face,

it was only but a dream..