Black Heart

I can feel my sanity slowly disappear
As my grip gets tighter, it only slips farther away
Blackness starts to cut into the corners of my vision
Dissolving all my self-control like tooth decay

I will leave behind my family, my friends
Force myself to feel numb so these memories fade
Stabbing my heart with life's rusty dagger
Deeper and deeper goes its blade

The smiles and laughs haunting me day and night
I can't escape the routine, I can't escape the pain
If only there was some direction to the exit
My path would be clear and I could pick a lane

But this is always the way things are
Bitter-sweet with never-ending distress
Billions of people all around me
But no one to hear these feelings I suppress

Kicking and screaming, begging for release
I refuse to just accept things near and far
You may keep moving forward without a worry
But I cannot blind my eyes from how things are

So take what you will from these words I write
I don't care if you agree with what I say
This screwed up world wasn't meant for me
And I just wasn't meant to stay