Ashamed

This constent feeling of being ashamed
has left me ready to leave this world.
The ache it puts in my stomache.
The burning red colour it puts in my cheeks.
The sickening, quivering body.

It's as if at any moment I may collapse.
And yet if I were to collapse sometimes I feel,
that would only make things so much easier.

The heavy weight that has been hovering
over me my whole life is only getting
STRONGER as TIME passes by.

People always told me that TIME heals everything
but TIME means nothing because I keep running
but I can NEVER seem to catch up with it.

I try to stay STRONG but I can no longer HOLD this SHAME inside of me.
I can't tell anyone because it's too HORRIBLE.

So with this EMPTY feeling inside,
And the SHAME written on my wrists,
I lie down and fall ASLEEP for the LAST time.