As I climb in our bed you slide your head over to my pillow. I turn and kiss you and tell you I missed you. Your eyes are so distant , your heart just a murmur, your thoughts just a daydream. What has happened to us? Are we the 75% that have fallen out of love an into dust. Was I floating on a cloud that didn't exist?? Please tell me how to fix this?? I'm scared!!! You just smile a grin an lightly brush my hair off my chin and wipe away my tear. I don't say anything I just lie here and wonder how your so far yet so near. I wish you would back away, all the way forever, until you fall off the edge of the earth. I wish your mom had never given birth. How do I love you so much yet hate you. I don't understand how you un-become a man and turn into this sad excuse for a human. I just want to apologize to the world on your behalf. My apologies to homeland security that your specious was created and this apology is belated.
