Don't you know?

by Once an Angel   Feb 4, 2011


You are so far away,
Too far away for me.
I know,
You are where you must be,
Doing your sacred duty.

But, I am weak.
Didn't you know?

In the darkness I cower,
Wishing for your arms around me,
Your gentle whisper,
To ease the chaos,
To anchor me to sanity.
I gave it all up for you.
Pills. . .
Knifes. . .
Purging. . .
Pain. . .
For you, I let my guard fall down,
My soul naked to your eyes.

But you are gone for now,
Unable to light my world,
To keep me from drowning.

My love, I am drowning.
I have tread water for five months,
And I am so tired.
The knives are inviting,
Promising me release.
The pills are calling,
Covenanting peace.
The purging whispers,
Assuring relief.

I am weak.
Don't you know?

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  • 13 years ago

    by JaM

    I am so breath-taken by this poem. I share the pain of this and could love your interpretation of it. Thank you for sharing this as it's relieving to know I am not the only one with this kind of pain/love. Great write love! 5/5

  • 13 years ago

    by No1ButMe

    Omg, that's how I've been feeling. My bf is the only thing keeping me clean and he's being stationed overseas and I'm going crazy. These words are so inspiring to me. Try to stay strong and if you need to talk I'm here. But I did love it, just amazing! 5/5

    Svandyke

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