You don't want me to go..
But it's best if I do
Am I making you cry?
I'm sorry..
But at least listen to me..
Just one last time.
You say I bring happiness
Smiles and laughs..
But think about all the sorrow I bring
The frowns and the tears
All the good is nothing compared to the bad
I hurt you..
I cause you so much pain..
And I just cant bare to see you like this anymore
I don't want that your pain is my fault
That's why I'm going..
I'm not going to hurt you
To cause you pain or to make you cry..
I'm trying to save you from more hurt in the future
Your begging me to stay
Asking if there's anything to can say to stop me..
But I don't think there is..
I'm doing this for you..
And though this is tearing me apart
Ripping my heart apart..
I have to push you away..
It's the only way I know how to save you
I'm sorry..
I'm sorry!
I want to say this over and over again
And I do in a way..
The look I'm giving you
The tears brimming in my eyes
How I run away..
That's how I'm telling you I'm sorry
I'm sorry with all my heart
I wish I could hold you..
Tell you everything's going to be okay soon
But I can't..
You have to do this alone
You can do it..
Your a strong girl..
Stronger than you think..
You're going into the light,
A place I can never go
I must go back to the darkness
That's where I belong..
You try to pull me along with you there
But if I step into the light I'll burn..
Go blind..lose control..
Do you know why I'm doing this?
I'm sick of pretending that's why..
The mask's begging to fall off
And I just don't want you to be around when it's completely gone
When I finally snap
Because really..
I don't know what I'm going to do
I'm afraid I'll hurt you
Go on a rampage of anger
Than fall into a pit of despair
I just can't bare for you to see me like that
It would tear you apart inside..
Knowing that you couldn't help..
Knowing all you could do was watch me break..
That's why I'm going..
So I can't hurt you..
No longer will you have this weight on you
You'll be free to fly
So soar through the sky and never stop.
I wish you a happy & long life
Spend it with the ones you love
The ones you cherish
Achieve all your dreams and never give up
You're an amazing person and an lovely girl..
But I don't deserve you
Know this hurts me more than you'll ever know..
But it's better this way.
I'll always remember you..
You've left quite a mark on my life..
You've won a place in my heart forever..
But forget me..
You'll be happier that way.
I love you..
I care about you..
But I can't bare hurting you..
Not anymore..
I'm sorry..
Goodbye.
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my ex-boyfriend wrote this, the day he..he was going to kill himself..he wrote this for me..
You have to know he is still allive..I helped him to go through with his life.. know he has someone else..but he's happy know..and i'm happy for him that he's happy..
