Midas

I hate how I mess up so much.
For every single thing I touch.

Seems to turn to ash.

A modern day Midas you might call me.
For letting the most important thing,
slip through my fingers freely.

I tried to understand,
I tried to see inside.
Yet my fatal mistake.
My emotions I could not hide.

I burn like fire with these thoughts in my head.
I wish thoughts of love would be there instead.

But it's hard to get over a scar.
Sometimes it shapes who we are.

I can't believe I didn't see that until now.
How I could have thought otherwise,
I don't know how.

Maybe I won't get another chance.

I guess it's time for me to learn my lesson.
To realize that I'm a selfish person.

If my Angel can't be happy with me,
I swear to God I'll set her free.
Her happiness is most important to me.

Its her decision as well as mine.
And if she leaves I'll try to be fine.

Even though I won't

And I'll put my faith in God, if she finds someone else.
It won't be someone who'll put her through hell.
For someone more than me.
someone better.
Who won't write her these stupid letters.

begging for forgiveness.

I screwed up twice!?
In the past four days!?
When will I be over these idiotic ways?

I guess I was hurt when she said let's take it slow.
Because what she didn't know,
Is that I was already trying to take it slow.

I just love her that much.

And also, I didn't even know.
Why she thought that way.
She'll never tell me.

Her complexity runs as deep as the sea.

I tried to know
I tried to understand.
But the devil loves to put his hand.
Inside the mind of an idiotic man.

To sow the seeds of evil,
and put dark thoughts in the mind.
And through all this I think you'll find.

Most of the time he wins.

And forces people to say,
things they regret.
And terrible emotions,
they want to forget.

I guess I can't promise he won't get to me again.

A little bird told me She used to cry every night.
For love she didn't have,
it gave me a fright.

Because here I was,
her knight in White.
with the sword she has,
all evil I could smite.
The evil that visits her every night.

But she won't let me use it.

if she says the words,
"make me feel better"
I would turn into a manic bloodletter.
and destroy all the evil,
that puts on her fetters.

I knew she was nervous,
But I thought she was serious.
When the speed of her emotions,
kept up with mine.

Yes, taking it slow is fine.
But I want to know why.
Because the secret I never told you is.
I don't have much time.(left)

And I wanted us to be in the moment.

So here I am once again.

Begging for forgiveness.
Yes.

A modern day Midas.