Death-bound

I feel my world slipping from my fingers,
Inch by inch and mile by mile,
And all I see are tear drop faces
Surrounding me with their fake smile.
They pull me with their claws in every-way
To places I know I don't belong,
But I promised I'd smile today
No matter what went wrong.

Then it came, a punch and kick,
With determination to make me bleed,
To tear my heart out, make me sick,
And every other cruel deed.
Promises I know can be broken,
And though I could try and have tried.
There was no smile or words spoken
For I only could cry and have cried.
I know what I have to do,
But I'm not sure if I want to,
Because letting go of you
Is the hardest thing I could ever do.

This Gray area I'm in,
One of thought and want,
I'm sure that where ever I've been
Is not all that I'll feel haunt.

For those who believe
Don't waste your prayers on me,
And those who read this and cannot breathe,
Pause, and take a breath for me

There's no need of tears for the sad,
No need of sympathy for thee unsound,
Or of worry for the fear and bad.
Just know this: life is death-bound