Lost to suicide

Your chest never mended,
your heart forever broken,
you took the gun and shot yourself,
now your scars are open,

Your problems were too much,
your tears were quick and silent,
your mind was already made up,
then it was decided,

Your face the last time I seen it,
seemed so happy to me,
but it wasn't what was on the outside,
but what we couldn't see,

We weren't very good friends,
we rarely ever spoke,
now whenever i hear your name mentioned,
it makes me want to choke,

Someone my age had killed themselves,
I remember that day clearly,
I remember hearing your name said,
someone that was loved dearly,

I heard many rumors,
reasons why you did it,
I heard about the pregnancy,
but that just didn't fit,

Everyone has there ideas,
there own feelings about your suicide,
I don't know what mine are quite yet,
unlike you I can't decide.