Lonely in my state
Love is so hard to face
Especially when you abuse it
And it was so kind to you
Karma comes and hit you
For pissing on its elemental sister
It's hard to rebound back from this heartbreak
Shouldve never fooled around
Never should i have played games of a child
Now the brutality of its nature
Is a demolition, deliquent
How i wish to take the hands of time
Ask that old Grandfather Time
To please press rewind
Because all the bad roads ive crossed
I'd walk a million miles back
in the opposite direction
With swollen feet and a sorrowed, seasoned heart
Not even daring to care about
Trespasses against myself
Only worrying about mine against others
My forgiveness is all im worth
Anguish and tears
I have heard and seen spilled
Late night insomnia
And horrific, haunting dreams
Caused by my hands
My imperfect doing
The flame that i spread like wildfire
The unholy roar of water from a hurricane
The emotions that boil over
That over time builds up
Like a bubbling pit of lava
While my eyes were closed and in my mischief state
I didnt see
who or how i was effecting those around me
If given another chance
Another grateful opportunity
I can promise
Not another shred of indignity
But grace and appreciation
for the unbelieveable experience
Every spectacle of every moment
What your essence and being
Means to me
To anyone i have ever offended or hurt
That was for you......
