I sit alone on the sidewalk
It's pouring outside right now
I think back to when we were happy
I remember when everything was easy
I remember when we used to smile
I remember when I didn't cry everyday
I remember when you would tell me that you love me
I remember that we were once happy
Now I think to now
And I remember how unhappy I am
I remember when I cried yesterday
I remember that I hardly ever see you smile anymore
Or smile myself
As I recall these things, tears are falling down my face
But no one can see anyway
Because it's raining outside
A text
But it's not from you
A phone call
But it's not you calling me
A knock on the door
But it's not you
I reach out for you to hold my hand
But you're not there
The emptiness in my heart
The deafening silence that fills my ears
The burning tears that fall from my eyes
It's all so overwhelming
I wish I could disappear in the shadows
I wish I could vanish
I wish I could sleep
And never wake up
To slip away into eternity
Maybe it would ease the pain
Being without you is so painful
Being with you is so much more unbearable
You're with me
But it's as if you were gone
But I'm now I'm just sitting here on this sidewalk...
